Chip On My Shoulder
ccie-sp September 1st, 2009
A few weeks ago, I had the pleasure of attending Legally Blonde The Musical with my wife. It had been a long summer for us and so we decided that we were going to treat ourselves to a night out. One of the songs in the play was ‘Chip On My Shoulder’ sung by the character Emmett. The song was entertaining to say the least, but a few of the lyrics within the song really stuck in my head:
No! That’s the chip on my shoulder
I hugged my mom and told her
With the chance I’ve been given
I’m gonna be driven as hellThough I can’t take the day off
I just think of the payoff
You need a chip on your shoulder
Little Miss Woods comma Elle
For the life of me, I couldn’t shake the words, Though I can’t take the day off…I just think of the payoff, out of my head and felt very driven for a new achievement in my career. Watching shows off the DVR and playing video games all summer just wasn’t going to cut it. My workload lessened so work itself had become stagnant and I figured I needed a new challenge to keep me going.
As you may know, I’ve been eligible to take the Security lab for quite some time, but the test had been eluding my interest level. I’m usually more interested in a technology when I know it will be utilized in some form within my work environment. Presently, my company views security technologies as a luxury and hasn’t approved any of the recommendations for new security initiatives which has really dampened my spirits with the track altogether. IMHO, the market seems to have dried up for Cisco security technologies in SoCal. I still have until mid-February to make up my mind about the track, but I have yet to find that spark that’s going to drive me to finish the track.
With the R&S track updating later this year to include MPLS (among other things), it only made sense that I should brush up on the technology to assess my personal knowledge of the subject matter. After reading a few chapters this summer from MPLS Fundamentals, I found the technology to be very interesting. I also ended up reading MPLS and VPN Architectures, Volume II and was completely hooked. To measure my level of knowledge with the content from these 2 books, I decided to sign up for my CCIE Service Provider written exam (350-029). I had booked the test for today and managed to pass it earlier this morning. Aside from receiving validation of the material, I’m now eligible to take the Service Provider lab. I feel more driven towards this track than security but some questions linger about in my head:
-Can I even afford the additional expenses? –> I just checked with my wife and she says, yes, but I have to pass the lab on the 1st try.
-Is studying even possible with my current workload? –> Not really, but I thrive on pressure.
-Could I truly commit myself to long lab hours, cramping fingers, an aching lower back, and isolation from my favorite activities (i.e. poker, basketball, mini expeditions, etc.)? –> If I wanted it badly enough, I would find a way.
-If I pursue a track, which one? –> I really have to weigh the pros/cons for each track.
My plan for now is to really think it over during the Labor Day weekend and just make a decision. All I know is that a driving factor for me is I need a bigger payoff in life (not necessarily a monetary one).